Sometimes I wish we could just jump 5 years into the future, just to see where I would be? I still struggle with : What am I called to do? Like .. what in the world is it that i'm supposed to be doing for the rest of my life. Sometimes I feel like I know the answer: Charlie, you're doing it right now.
argh! I get passionate about changing the lives of young men and guiding and gearing their lives. Maybe it's a sign that i'm ready to be a parent! hahaha! But more than likely, I know where it stems from...
Once upon a time, in the not so distance past, I slipped off the 'right' track.... At that time, I had hoped that someone would come to my rescue. Sure maybe I was naive about it, maybe even a little selfish... Nevertheless, for all the work and time and I had dedicated to this group of people, not one person reached out to me. Consequently, I felt flat on my face. Now, I understand that it wasn't their fault that I fell flat on my face - that was all me. But man, it sure would've been nice to have had a helping hand. This scenario sparked something within me that, to this day, embodies everything that I do.
There are people that need help, and with my skills, experiences, and knowledge - I can help them. in what? in whatever.. lol. I help people - that's what I do best. I help people get jobs. I help people become independant. I help and guide people into increasing their faith and knowledge of God. I help people in crisis - all the time! I help people who can't (at time) help themselves. My heart goes out to them and I do everything and anything within me to HELP.
I once heard it said that one should continue doing what they love to do, become the best at it, and someone will pay you for it....
But I've also come to realize that the only way I can truly help people is if I stand up for them. If I stand in the gap for them and represent them in a way that's truly beneficial to those who can't help themselves. I wouldn't say that I would be giving out free money - because that's not smart. But at time I wish I could have financial instituions go out in the community and teach young, old, poor, and middle to read their financial statements, balance their checkbooks, and ultimately a savings plan. I want to provide resources, not just a blank check.
More and more, I see that being part of the community and representing them, I could be of better service to them. Ironically enough, it's almost like I should go for Mayor or councilman or something. My scare is that there are some things that I'm not proud of that may come out in the light. Everyone has skeletons. The person that needs to know, knows... my wife. So it shouldn't matter, should it. Either way, we'll see about that.. lol
the more i think about where I am today and the doors God has opened in the last 6 months... i'm amazed. i sit on the board of my employer (siatech charter high school). I sit on the board of American Red Cross for south dade, and i sit on the board of miami dade county naranja lakes community redevelopment agency. just in the past 6 months! i've had interviews with commissioners, board members, and community individuals. i've even been offered a job somewhere else! and i completed and earned my bachelors degree (FINALLY!) in public administration....
God - I continue to trust in you! that's all i can do and --- that's all i have left. because i love you and we share that every day. i just lay it all out before you.. my past, present, and future... you are it! i trust.
continually molded,
c. lo
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